Do Nothing (a fine point)

To put a finer point on thought management, particularly as it applies to chronic worriers like myself, I share this jewel.

When I got here to this damn beach, I went to Whole Foods and bought mangoes, strawberries, and bananas. So what?

They are driving me nuts! WTF?

Yeah, unfortunately true. You see, what if I do not eat all of them, or when should I eat them? As days pass and they still pose there in plain sight, I wonder if they will rot before I get to them. And that makes me very, very, anxious. Do you see what I am dealing with here?

So I manage my thoughts. This is something many folks do quickly and subconsciously, or they never have the thoughts that provoke a need for this in the first place. What’s the difference, who knows. This is how my mind works.

It is not so bad. But it takes constant effort. Nobody likes that answer. Maybe a month, possibly a year of work but forever? No thank you. I would rather ignore it. But will that make it go away?

So, I guess I have to accept the way my mind works. There are some good parts too. Of my mind.

I think that minds are as unique as hair or eye color, but general public information leads me to believe that all minds are supposed to be the same and my unique way of staying on “high alert” and constantly worrying is somehow a problem. But what if it isn’t? Anymore than brown hair and hazel eyes?

So I manage my thoughts. And when I forget about doing that (which is nearly always) I wait for something to remind me. The fruit is kind of funny when you think about it.