Today has been quite challenging for me. You might think I was super busy, but not in the least. I had nothing to do, and it drove me crazy.
We could tackle the ins and outs of this crazy mindset in many ways, none of which would result in a meaningful change but all of which would help my awareness and understanding. For example, during my childhood I lived in constant fear of being reprimanded or belted by my father. One thing that could provoke my dad’s ire was being lazy or hanging around and doing nothing. So….
But there are a number of physiological reasons too. My mind and nervous system stay hyper active. This probably gave me an advantage when we lived amongst animals that ate us.
And if reincarnation is a thing, who knows what kind of experiences could be playing a role.
But I digress. The point is that it was hard for me to do nothing, it really bothered me, and took until nearly 2pm for me to decide I wanted to make it work. I mean after all I am hanging out at the beach and could go kayaking or walking or a hundred other things. I could do whatever I want! Wait, really?
That very idea that I could do anything I wanted seemed wholly unfamiliar, maybe taboo, definitely not a mindset I had much, if any, experience with. But I settled into it and things smoothed out, I began to feel really, really good.
I could only seem to do it for about an hour though. I am going to do that again someday.
You should try it.