I met God. I fell in love with God and spent many years enraptured, overwhelmed with love. I prayed deeply and desired only to be of service and give God’s love to others. I wanted for nothing else but to serve and love God.
Over time, I noticed there were things that I was losing, so I prayed to God for a happy, healthy, and long life. But why only me?
Please, dear God, may my family, relatives, and friends live happy, healthy, and long lives. But why only us?
Please, dear God, may the world live in peace, without war. Yes, but what about all the individual humans and their happiness, health, and long lives? I dared not go that far, but had to pray for something more.
Please, dear God, may every human being have quality food, water, shelter, medical care, education, and freedom. Still no guarantee of happiness, health, and long lives, but what I felt were basic rights to human life.
What is too much to ask of God? Is God not limitless, unconditional, capable of anything? What about the animals? Why can’t they have happy, healthy, and long lives?
What is the nature and purpose of life, and why is it impossible for me to imagine only happiness without stress or challenge?
This is a wonderful meditation. One that I must continue to contemplate myself, still. But at this point, I believe the nature of life is struggle. This could be a truth or a faulty belief that causes me undue stress and unhappiness. But if the nature of life is not that struggle, then why do I have it so good? How do I reconcile the guilt I feel about other life having more suffering than I do? Can I enjoy a life without struggle, being free, when others are not?
A powerful place to be; where to go from here?